Black clouds overhead

Heh, I was cleaning out my room and found a sheet of paper that Ben had me write 20 positive traits about myself. I ripped it to shreds when I found it. It actual;y felt really good, like that act was saying "Ha I told you so". Guess my self-esteem isnt the best today...

It's so funny [well not funny as in humorous] how a great day can suddenly turn so black for me without warning. And nothing even has to set it off, I could be having a perfectly fine day and the...zap!...my thinking automatically goes straight into 'gee i really would like to take my whole bottle of anti-depressants now...and maybe a few dozen sleeping pills...'

And the thing is DEPRESSION IS NOT A SIN! And so many people just don't get that. They are really quick to point the finger at sins that are visible. It hurts.


Religious or spiritual things that get said:

"There must be something wrong with your spiritual life."
Yes, depression CAN be a result of sin. BUT depression is NOT always a result of sin! If it is, God will tell you loud and clear what the problem is.

This saying piles on the guilt for the depressed Christian. It's unlikely that their depression has a spiritual cause, and this implies that they are not good enough spiritually.

"Repent and ask forgiveness for your sin!"
Depression is a result of sin, in that if there was no sin in the world depression wouldn't exist. But then, neither would diabetes, or cancer, or any other illness... Sin caused the word to be not-perfect, therefore illness exists.

It is not a sin to be depressed, any more than it is to have any other illness.

Depression can be used by God to encourage repentance, but in that case, it will be crystal clear exactly what sin you should repent of. If you don't know, or have just a vague sense of guilt, your depression is not the result of a sin. Accusing someone of having depression because you think they committed some random sin is arrogant.

It wouldn't be the act of a loving God to refuse to tell you what you need to repent of.

"Real Christians don't get depressed."
The implication behind this is that someone with clinical depression is not a "Real Christian®". That hurts, especially if it comes from someone who holds authority.

It is hard to be depressed and Christian, very hard. I'd say it takes more faith to hold on to the fact that God exists when your situation is screaming out that even if there was a God, he hates you, than it does when all is going your way.

"You need to have more faith." / "Have faith in God."
Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is the substance [or realisation] of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen

How much faith does it take to hold onto the basic tenets of the Christian faith when emotions scream at you daily to give up, get out and avoid God? Very often a depressed Christian will be hanging onto faith by their fingernails in a situation that requires more faith than the average.

"Taking antidepressants is playing God, He can heal you."
Yes, God can heal. Sometimes he doesn't just flick a switch make the illness vanish, sometimes the healing comes through the conventional ways of doctors, psychiatrists, counsellors, therapists and medication. By persuading someone not to take their medication in preference for a fast, supernatural healing that God may not have in store for them, the sufferer is being denied something that will help them, right now.

In John 5:1-15 Jesus only healed one man out of the many who were gathered. Not everyone will receive supernatural healing. We don't always understand why God does as he does, only that he is God and will do what is right.

"Scripture says everything that happens is for your own good!"
The actual verse says:

Romans 8:28

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

This verse in no way implies that the sufferer should sit back and accept the illness for the rest of their life. It also does not say that illnesses are not to be fought with the intention of a cure. While God may well have things to do with a depressed person, the illness is not a good thing of itself, and it may take years before you see positive results from it.

"You've been prayed for, why has nothing changed?"
This can be expressed in several ways and spoken by one of two different groups of people: either the person who asked for prayer, or those who prayed for them.

We'll break the underlying situation into two areas: something definite was experienced in the prayer time: chains were obviously broken and a new freedom gained, or, nothing apparently happened at all. That is, "I know God set you free, [as testified to by experience, or, simply accepted by faith] why are you not walking in that freedom?"

When God steps in and answers believer's prayer for a person to be freed from the influence of unclean an spiritual influence there may well be a noticeable sense of having been freed. Why is it then that we don't all immediately change?

The bible speaks of our lives as being like clay; we are moulded through everything we go through. There are 3 sources of spiritual influence on our lives: God's holy spirit, our own human spirit and unclean / demonic spirits. Take, for instance, temptation - it might not always be the devil himself tempting us, it may be our own human spirit / human nature. Lots of things work to shape this clay, the onus is on us to give ourselves progressively more and more to God and open our lives to His moulding process.

Let's expand on the clay metaphor some more. Clay is not a very elastic substance. If you press a thumb into it and pull it away you'll get a thumb print. A balloon, on the other hand, would spring back immediately when the outside influence is removed (the thumb). God's word talks of us as being like clay, not balloons. Clay is solid, has substance, is useful for creating utensils that can be used in his service. Balloons are insubstantial, have nothing solid inside and are full of hot air.

So, take away the outside "thumb" pressing on our life and we are still left with a thumbprint: habits that have formed, certain ways of thinking or reacting to things, etc. God can (and does) change things like these instantly in some people, however, there are times when such a fundamental change would shatter who the person is and a longer, more sustained healing process is needed. That is, we are freed from the oppressive spiritual influence but over the course of weeks, months and years following the prayer time we see a gradual change as the unsightly "thumbprint" is smoothed out.

God wants us whole and healthy, it also says in Scripture that "the prayer of a righteous believer avails much" but it also says that one the fruit of God's Spirit dwelling within us is patience and endurance. Prayer gets the job done ... it's just that the process started by the prayer may be an ongoing one.

"Depression is a self discipline problem."
I have seen a church publish this statement on the web. It is NOT true.

Self discipline is important to a Christian. We have to be disciplined enough not to break the laws of the land, and to obey our God. But no amount of self discipline will get rid of a medical problem. This statement implies that the sufferer is lazy and could become better by sheer force of will. This is not possible, and causes a lot of guilt.

"You should be praying about this."
Implicitly, whoever says this is also saying "This wouldn't have happened if you'd been praying enough." That's a big assumption to make about someone.

To a person with depression, it can seem like God left town a long time ago without leaving a forwarding address. It can seem as if your prayers bounce straight back off the ceiling, and that prayer is as fulfilling and satisfying as yelling at a block of wood.

When you're depressed, you may not "feel" God as you had before. Often you don't feel anything but numb and hollow. For me, and for many people, depression had a shrivelling effect on my faith. I found it hard to hang onto anything but the most basic elements of Christianity, and sometimes lost my grip on those. When I did manage to pray, it was a yell of pain and confusion. This is why we are supposed to base our faith on facts (God loves you, he loved you when you were a sinner too, Jesus paid the full price for all our sins, etc.) rather than feelings, which are fickle at the best of times. It can be incredible hard to hold onto those facts in depression, like trying to run into a very strong wind.

John Lockley says:

In Christians, spiritual effects follow from the depression, and seldom the other way round. I repeat - in Christians, nearly always the depression comes first, followed by a sense of remoteness from God, rather than depression being the result of "falling away."

"A Practical Workbook for the Depressed Christian,"

One of the most eloquent and heartfelt prayers a depressed Christian can pray is "Help me God, I'm hurting!" This is a better prayer than the thirty minute waffle that doesn't actually say anything. It's honest, open and sincere.

God is listening, even if everything within you is screaming that he isn't. Prayer during depression can take an awful lot of effort. One comeback to this saying is "I am praying, as best I can. Will you pray for me too?"

"You just need to rebuke that spirit of depression and tell it to leave you. Don't let Satan steal your joy."
There are two problems with this statement. One problem is the assumption that depression is caused by demonic oppression. The other problem is the assumption is that joy and happiness are the same thing.

Blaming a "spirit of depression" can be a wonderful cop-out. Just cast out the spirit and you're cured! No need for long term support, for prayer, for counselling, for anything at all! And with this statement comes the implicit assumption that once again it's your fault you're depressed, this time because you're not "spiritual" enough to get rid of the troublesome spirit yourself.

Yes it is possible that demonic oppression can cause depression. No, demons are not responsible for every case of depression. Imagine what would happen if this statement was directed at someone with cancer, or haemophilia, or osteoporosis ("Just cast out that demon attacking your bones and be strong again! God wants to see you running marathons!").

The second problem with this statement is that joy is equated with happiness. People with depression are not going to be the happiest souls in the church. I've heard it said that happiness depends on what happens, whereas joy can exist in very unhappy situations.

*this information from http://www.christian-depression.org/cdp/sayings-xtn.php

K, I'm done with my rant. I guess just wanted to say, don't point the finger, in God's eyes, lying is just the same as murdering. Judge not, lest ye be judged. And all that stuff.