Phillipians 4:7

Its been almost a year since the trauma. My mind wants to forget, but my body won't let me. I haven't been able to sleep lately, and it sucks. I desperately wish all the memories would just disappear.

I am just trying to remember that I have a mighty God who can heal anything and has a peace that surpasses all understanding. (Philippians 4:7 - "And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.")

I talked with the youth pastor at my church about a month ago and he was talking to me about not just praying for God's peace, but accepting it. I didn't really realize that I have had God's peace all along, but it's a matter of actually opening my hands and taking it.

Also, we were talking in church on Sunday about how powerful God is (Romans 8:31 - "What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?"). I mean, that is pretty cool; my God is so big that there is nothing in this world that can harm me that really matters.

We also talked about a lot of other really interesting things, like that there is nothing that we can go through that God doesn't understand and I was really challenged to not focus on my problems and suffering and focus on praying to understand God's heart and the suffering He went through. But that's a whole 'nother subject which I am sure I could not articulate even half as well as it was articulated in the sermon.

I don't think there really was a point to this post, I guess I am just trying to put my thoughts into words.

PS: This is pretty random but I have heard this new song on the radio a couple of times and I really wanted to share it...the lyrics are amazing (I don't have all the lyrics, it is such a new song that I wasn't able to find lyrics for it online).

It's called "Give Me Your Eyes" by Brandon Heath: "Give me Your eyes for just one minute, give me Your eyes so I can see everything that I've keep missing, give me Your love for humanity, give me Your heart for the broken hearted, give me Your heart for the forgotten, give me Your eyes so I can see..."

MRI

So, I am a klutz. What else is new? Lol. About 3 weeks ago, I fell and hurt my knee pretty badly. I don't remember if I tripped and fell or if my knee gave out and I fell (my knees have a history of doing this).

Anyways, after a series of doctor's appointments, I found out...well, nothing. Except that I have the knees of a 50 year old haha. And I have something called patellar subluxation, which is basically when you dislocate your kneecap (patella). So my knees grind and make weird noises...I already knew this; my knees have been creaking for years. It is probably due to a mix of the ED and 10 years of ballet.

But on the bright side, when I went to the student health center to get my knee checked out when I first hurt it, I happened to be examined by a doctor who did a physical on me a couple years ago when I was in a much different condition. She remembered me, and commented on how at least I don't have bradycardia anymore. Yeah, I think I'll take a sprained knee and a healthy heart over a good knee and a weak heart.

Anyways the orthopedist said that he thought it might be sprained, but he also wanted me to get an MRI so he could check for a tear in my meniscus and my ACL. I don't think I tore anything, because for the most part I can walk fine now.

I sprained my ACL years ago in high school, so hopefully that's all it is. Ironically, I fell down the stairs that time too. With a vacuum cleaner, LOL. My orthopedist remembered me as vacuum cleaner girl, and to this day, I am still not allowed to carry a vacuum cleaner down the stairs! =P

My MRI is today at 6 pm. Hopefully it goes well.

Mercy Me's Cover Tune Grab Bag

This is a hilarious video! It is Mercy Me doing a cover of DC Talk's 'Jesus is Just Alright'

I love science jokes

This poem was on the wall of my Analytical Chem lab...I found it quite funny.

The Chemistry Student's Prayer

Analyst is my Chemist, I shall not Quant;

He maketh me to precipitate in green ions,
He leadeth me to mop up the de-ionised waters;

He restoreth my equilibrium.
He replenisheth my tote-box;
He maketh me to pay promptly for glassware I break.
He leadeth me into the Chemistry Lab for Science's sake.

Yeah though I walk in the shadow of the titration curve,
I will fear no Acid,
For my Apron is with me.
Thy stirring rod, and thy Chem Staff, they comfort me.

Thou preparest an unknown before me, in the presence of interfering ions;
Thou anointest my head with indicator,
My Buret runneth over.

Surely panic and problems shall follow me all the days of my strife;
And I shall dwell in the Chem Lab forever.